If you haven't allowed this year to squeeze the best out of you, what have you been doing? Trials and hardship are always meant to be turned around for good. It is a promise. Ask God for help if you struggle in this area. He is always willing. He can be trusted. Don't give up hope. If you have lost a loved one this year, this might be the hardest thing for you to read right now, and that is understandable. Allow yourself to grieve; don't force it. King Jesus will walk with you every step of the way thru that, even at your pace. He will never leave you grieving alone.
"And He said to them, “Therefore every scribe who has been trained for the kingdom of heaven is like a master of a house, who brings out of his treasure what is new and what is old.” Matthew 13:52 ESV